Not Every Prayer is About Infertility...
MY HUSBAND HAS A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
View ArticleNow that I have calmed down a little
So the interview I wrote about that was on Monday? That is the place that offered M a job! :-D He surprised me at work and I burst into tears as soon as he told me. I cried so loud, people wandered in...
View ArticleCrazy Monday
My head is in a million places at once today. I considered not even updating. But its so therapeutic to get things out and written down...so you get bullet points since I am incapable of a narrative...
View ArticleThat is One ANGRY Uterus
CD1, finally - and with a vengeance. My uterus is so mad it feels like its strangling my intestines! Thank God for ibuprofen otherwise I'm not sure I could have stayed at work. So my luteal phase...
View ArticleWhen it Rains, it Pours
Oh, hello there. Sorry about the absence, everything just came down all at once and I haven't had time to catch my breath until now. I have been reading and keeping up with each of your journeys, but I...
View ArticleFollicle Update
I gotta tell you, M getting a job has done *wonders* for my ability to cope with infertility. My CD12 ultrasound was today (although I think I'm actually CD13....look at that! I'm not even sure what CD...
View ArticleAnd its 16mm in the lead!
Next cycle, I think I might come up with goofy horse names for the top 5 follicles or so - then if I have to have a repeat scan I can amuse myself with a horse race narrative in my head XD Anything to...
View ArticleBad Timing
This rotten cold I've been fighting since last week is ruining my cycle. I got what I thought was a positive OPK on Saturday, worked up the energy for sexy time, then failed to remember to use an OPK...
View ArticleSo Confused
After my last post, things got even weirder. I decided to use an OPK on Tuesday, kind of for gee whiz. It was very VERY positive, no doubt about it. So I was like "Oh....uhhhh....I guess we have sex...
View ArticleI'm a Bad Bloggy Friend
I swear I'm still here. And I swear I am keeping up with all of you. My heart swells with joy for some and with sadness and empathy for others. Even though I haven't been commenting, I am here and I...
View ArticleQuick Update
My RE's office never called last week, which means I really did ovulate afterall. Today I noticed some very faint spotting, right on schedule according to prior cycles. That means I can pretty much...
View ArticleI am Becoming Immune
After a year and 9 months of this bullshit, I am finally becoming numb to the monthly BFN. It helps that I have figured out the warning sign my body gives me before AF arrives. I always always spot a...
View ArticleInfertility Continues to be Cruel
Am I crazy, or just *very* empathetic, for literally crying when I heard the news? I don't care who or what it is affecting, the injustice of infertility makes my heart cry out for them all: "How long,...
View ArticleBack in the Stirrups Again
I did get to squeeze into the schedule for today and have an u/s. We are good to go for this cycle, mixing things up a bit with clomid CD5-10, including a double dose today. Also we are doing a trigger...
View ArticleMore IF Music
I am not a fan of what I would call "praise" music in the Christian Genre. It takes a special song to needle its way into my heart despite my initial reservations when I know its "praise music". But...
View ArticleA Long Awaited Update
I had thought that I would be able to write an update on Wednesday this week with all sorts of good news. The sellers' response to our repair requests was due on Tuesday, and my mid cycle u/s was...
View ArticleSo Much Time and So Little to Do!
Really, the reverse is just as true: so much to do and so little time! Is it possible for time to be moving too fast *and* too slow? Have I asked that question before...? I'm really bad at waiting. Not...
View ArticleSo Jaded
Barring any catastrophes, we will be moved into the new house in time to host a Halloween house warming party. I'm very excited about this and am already mentally planning it. I was pouting about not...
View ArticleWord Vomit
I have a lot of thoughts swirling in my head today, so this is probably all going to be a bit scattered. My apologies. A few Sundays ago, my pastor did an entire sermon about growing the church through...
View ArticleLoss
If I never manage to conceive a child of my own, if I give up on this struggle without ever seeing the coveted two lines on the test, I will try to remember *every day* how lucky I am to have never...
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